Ending of 2013

Looks like my blog is gonna rust very soon.

It has been so long since the last time I updated.

These few months were quite a busy month for me...

The time goes off damn fast...

I can't even remember what have I done for the past few months.

I was kinda push myself too much at work.

As I want to make the best out of it... and it seems like my body has been going through a tough time these months...

I have gone through so much in my life, and I met so many people this year...

Being sentimental sometimes but not showing like always.
Smiley face of mine had already covered my true feeling for such a long time.

I just realized that actually there are things that I can never forget...

even if I want to...

Sometimes I really need someone to talk to, to speak out, to say what I really felt...
But I was always acted so tough like there is nothing actually happen at all...

I hate that side of me... Why can't I just share it out?
Karaoke is always the best place for me to release stress...

As I only sing emotional songs, cause the lyrics somehow capable to relate to my life,

and after hearing it, I somehow felt calm.

Is there actually anyone that are able to listen to what I say?
I am the only one that know myself and also the only one that does not know myself...

Attitude...
For work, I have the most serious attitude... 

I am able to sacrifice my time and all others for it...

In friendship, I am the one that is most straight forward...

Without thinking so much, I will just say what I really think it should be...Sometimes it might hurt others in the mean time...

In love life, I keep on friend-zoning everyone...

Acting so cool like I does not need anyone...

I don't seem to understand why I keep on showing this kind of attitude to all the people...

Just so tired...

I really hope someone actually know my true self...

And it seems like today is the last day of 2013,

It's an ending and also an beginning of a new journey...

To be continue on 2014...

Ryoichizb

It's Wine Day

Today is wine day,
which is a day that for all couple to celebrate by enjoying a nice dinner at restaurant.

For me, totally a normal day,
and it was like so coincident that today is my off day.

Well, looking for something to do right now.
Must fully utilize all my time, not to waste any of it anywhere.

I like to have a FULL life, I don't like having boring life.
It just make me felt lifeless.

Stresses came everyday, whether we want it or not, whether we can cope with it or not...
Facing all stresses is a must, it's just depends on sooner or later.

It just weird that today I'm being sentimental, I can't understand why.
My birthday is coming soon. but I don't felt like it is.
21st Birthday, shouldn't it be celebrated with special things?
Well I don't know, and I think it will actually be the same...

Life...

To be continue

Ryoichizb

Cope with it... Deal with it...

It's already September... Soon to be another year passing...

Time goes very fast this year... and I felt stresses coming to me more and more...

Graduated? Yes, but sorry I'm not going after my dreams. Dream vs Realistic. Realistic wins.

Since last month, I've been promoted to a in-charge position and looking after 3 counters.

It's difficult to do things without help. Yeah I may have a 2nd with me, but he is not as good as I expected,
and there're too much things I've to do it myself. I've tried to make him better and let him know that what should he do. He rely too much and can't do it himself.

By just thinking of current problems that I'm facing, it's already making me a headache. Sometimes I really do not know how to reply to the situation when my superior against me. I've to handle EVERY single thing, even small cases. I can't even relax on my off day... It's just damn... damn...

Well, stresses will have all the time whenever or wherever we go. So I think I'll just have to live with it, deal with it. Settling it.

On 1st September, I met her... who's her? My ex. She just went pass me right before my eye when I'm working. I'm totally stunned. Was having lots of pressure that time with lots of task need to be settle and it's just somehow out of my mind temporarily. It just felt like so long ago... But why I can still remember?

Upon entering my car, I started the engine, and the music just play like it knows what I'm thinking. Damn.

Good Luck to me and Keep it up!
I've 2 years to prove what I am. :)

RyoichiZB

After that...

2 more days and it's July...

It has been a month since the last time I blog...
Was so busy before... and finally there's a small break...
And tomorrow is my graduation convocation...

and there it goes 3 years...

College life was a total mess...

hate most of it and like some part of it...

I'm still thinking whether to continue studies and get a degree or just start working...
It's like another 2years of mess?
I just hate my life right now...
there's lots of opportunity for me to turn another way towards a different path...

and sometimes I asked myself, what is the reason I study in the first place?

Somesay, "To ensure a brighter future"

Yeah, it is able to help prevent dying from hunger...
But it isn't gonna bring myself rich that way...

lonely?
Sometimes, yeah...
Sometimes, not really...
plenty of chances for myself to get rid of that status but I chosen to stay at it.

I'm so tired...
Maybe I'm just being lazy?

Hate my life right now...
I wanna make a change...
Am I able to do that?

Again, I'm beiing sentimental...even after a month...
I just need a long break... I think...?


RyoichiZB

Reminded Me about Past

It has been awhile since then...

Suddenly "she" came across my mind...

I thought that I've already forgotten her...

But suddenly seeing her friends posting something...

Reminded me...

Why am I here blogging right now?

I should be doing my last homework right now for my presentation tomorrow...

My mood suddenly go deep down to the bottom...

My heart suddenly feel so pain as I think about it...

Right now, I can't stop myself thinking about it...

Who is "she"?

She WAS the one that I thought I can't live without...

She WAS the one that I'm willing to give all I have...

She WAS the one that I thought I'm gonna marry in the future...

She WAS the one that I love the most...

She WAS the one I wanted to protect the most...

Yeah, She WAS...

3 years had passed since then...

You told me to wait for you...

and you told me to cool down for 1 month...

3 years ago, today is the day that u said after 1 month...

Just drank alicafe... wont be sleeping tonight

Sorry for being sentimental today...

RyoichiZB

【ღ White Day ღ】

Today is White Day,

Valentine's Day is the day where girls presenting chocolate gifts to boys as an expression of love...

Whereby White Day is the day where boys should return the favor by giving back gifts to those girls...

But it's a normal day for me since there was no chocolate for me last month... XD

My Final Assessment is on 7th of April...

It's like the ultimate deadline for everyone in my class...

Yeah, it should be fine for me, I guess...

Perhaps I should make it better than that...?

Homework deadlines was like flying nearer and nearer to me...

It makes everything stress...

I don't have the time to do so much?

Sometimes I think I do have it...

But it just felt like I'm not doing it...

I'm not sure what's the feeling of this...

It just making me stress...

Love...?
I don't think I should be thinking about this anymore...
Tears will somehow stop when time comes...

Life will somehow gets better when I work hard...

And tomorrow is her birthday... 

I wonder why I can still remember...
But I will just look like I don't anyhow right? : )

Nothing much, just chilling here after doing some part of homework.

RyoichiZB

【ღ A Day and Another Day ღ】

So what's happening?

1st Situation :

My Internal Final Assessment ended. Wow.
Nice. Finally done. But much more to go on since 11th March gonna have an exhibition at college.
and what's the result? I don't know. Many things need to be improve.

2nd Situation :

Packaging group work that I don't know anything about it. Wow.
I wonder why is it have to be group work?
It's much better to do it alone anyhow since group members are all dragging me down.
What more I can say? Doing things that never actually think what will it be after that.
No comment from me besides saying "well done".
So what actually happens?
Yeah, I m having final on the damn same date and it make me much more busier.
Well, I did everything I can to make the whole thing easier to be able to understand.
But wtf happen?
Path were all wrong direction.
I wonder they really do research or they were planning to left everything for me to do.
I did what I'm capable, trying my freaking best to explain while they said "Yeah, Understood."
But What came out?
Okay, so maybe I should say it's my fault that I din't do EVERYTHING for you all.
If you all expect so much.

3rd Situation :

Hanging out after everything at college settled.
Fetching everyone back after dinner and plan to have another round to celebrate friends' birthday after that but was a total fail. since it's just fucking damn stupid plan. no point to explain more about it.

Freaking bad mood, no where to release anger. Well, maybe here's the best place to release anyway.

RyoichiZB

【ღ Happy Valentine's Day ღ】

Suddenly felt like blogging today,
almost a month since the last time I blog.

Saint Valentine's Day,
commonly known as Valentine's Day,
or the Feast of Saint Valentine,
is observed on February 14 each year.

For me, it's just a working day.
Kinda tired of everything around.

Looks like my body might not be able to maintain any much longer.
It's like seriously incurable.
I might not be able to stand long. stay long, any more.

It's just weird that I'm a patient that does not seek for any doctor.
Yeah, I'm totally frightening about the result of the checkup.

I always wanted to tell myself that I'm strong.
Strong enough to endure everything.
But I failed to do so...

Sometimes I wonder why am I writing all these for...?
I don't know.

There's things that won't change no matter whatever happening,
so, just leave it as it...

RyoichiZB

【ღ Life Begining @ 2013 ღ】

Me, after bathing,

Looking at the blurred mirror...

drawing a smiley face...

As if I am smiling to myself...

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So It was started on Wednesday,
After class,
I went to Sunway Pyramid to celebrate friend's birthday at Wong Kok

Yeah of coz, we went there because of the big size teh tarik.
Haha XD

And after everything ended,
I went to Midvalley and wait for my another friend to bring me to sungei wang area.
So we shop awhile at sungei wang then went to Pavillion and bought this.

Marimo!
Consider as our new pet~ haha~

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 On the same day,
we saw this advertisement at facebook.
so we decided to try Nando's for the first time~

And then the second day, we went to Nando's at IOI Mall,
It's surprisingly tasty and it's can make us both full~
( p/s Both of us have really big appetite )

We ordered a set of whole chicken with 2 regular side dish and 2 bottomless Drink~
Totally worth it!

It's a very nice place, and I think I will go there again next time.
I think the next time I go would be a special day for me,
coz I saw the members' special stuffs.
and there's special offer for the anniversary that those that register their member on that day.
LOL

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Next thing to do,
HOMEWORK!
Arghh..

Life goes on...

Saying 'Goodbye' to 2012 and 'Hello' to 2013

≈ A Synopsis ≈

Many things happen in 2012,

Quite a stress year...

was so happy on the first sem of this year at college.

but was so sad on the second and third.

I love, but was hated ; I was loved, but I hated.

It's like impossible to find someone special.

was trying my best not to think about it.

but, it was impossible.

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≈ Something to say about Myself ≈

Being such a straight forward guy doesn't bring any good to myself.

But at least I'm being honest to myself.

I lie if I had to but I hate to.

It's just doesn't felt like myself.

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≈ I'm... ≈

I'm not good enough for her...

Absolutely not enough, I know..

Excuses? Come on, it's fucking truth la...

It's a pain when I stalk.

It's a pain when I accidentally saw.

It's a pain when I miss.

It's a pain when I felt that I can't do anything for...

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≈ Friends? ≈

Friends, I found out that I have few.

Not much, but at least there're able to understand me well...

At least they aren't like others...

Sometimes I really hate myself for being so different to different people.

it's like I had group my friends and there's zone where I treated them different.

Why can't I really just be the same to everyone?

The only reason that I found is, they are not able to understand my language.

Not much capable of understanding my words...

All my words is like a direct critical hit to them, while they do not understand the background.

I hate to explain much. I don't care even if they can't understand. 

Coz it just meant that we are from another world...

I "zone" every each part of friends list in my brain,

Yeah, it's just to let myself to be able to separate my language that will be use to communicate them.

It will also create a barrier that they will never ever be able to cross that zone...

Yeah, I know I'm bad.

But do any of you know I'm badly injured as well?

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≈ Good Stuffs? ≈

Enough talking about bad things and actually there're some good things happen in 2012 too.. :)

≈ On 25th October 2012 ≈

~First Round~

So this is the first round of the day,
I went to Berjaya Times Square,
With College Colleague,
Watching 'Silent Hill',
and having a Meal @Old Town White Coffee

 Me~

All of us there..

~Second Round~

So after everything done at Berjaya Times Square,
I went to Wong Kok Char Chan Teng @SS2,
With Secondary Colleague,

 The 'Birthday Teh Tarik' @ Wong Kok Char Chan Teng

Me and Chek Ping

~Third Round~

Then after 2nd Round ended,
We went to Food Talk @ Kuchai Lama
This round just 4 of us,
which is Kenry, Chek Ping, Ashley and myself :)

the weird drinks there~

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≈ Life as a Cosplayer ≈

So that was about my ordinary life...

Yeah, I do have one extraordinary one...

Cosplay life.

It brings me happiness and friends...

They are tons of people that are unable to understand the feeling of getting into this cycle.

And it's like singing to a cow if trying to explain to them...

So this is what I have done last year in 2012...

Event

~C2AGE 2012~

< DURARARA!! >

Orihara Izaya (me)

Shizuo (Alex)

~Comic Fiesta 2012~

< Fate/Stay Night >

Emiya Shirou

~Outdoor Photoshooting~

< Sengoku BASARA >

Uesugi Kenshin

Ichimaru Gin (me)

Halibel (Yuki)

Yeah, I'm definitely not a Professional Cosplayer...
Still a noobie... :c

Sorry if there's any mistake there in the character that I cosplay. >_<

Next plan?
U Guess! :p

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≈ It's 2013 ≈

And so 2012 has come to an end...
It's already January 2013

It's totally a new beginning and college life is gonna end very soon...
I hope I'm able to cope with my stresses...

~Target of this Year~
● Better Laptop ●
● Better Phone ●
● Filling up my Wardrobe ●
● Thicker Wallet ●
● Sleep more... lol ●

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≈ An Unforgettable memory ≈

Anyway,
Today is 3rd January 2013,
2 years had passed since then...

My tears still fall and I wonder why?

I miss you... I really do...

I hope you are really resting peace up there...

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To Be Continue...

RyoichiZB