Finally I did it!!!

Today,
just now,
about 8.30pm,
The Vice-Principal[Mrs Chua] of my college called me!!!
So this is what happen:

Me: Hello...?
Mrs Chua:Hello... Can I speak to Zhi Bin please...
Me: Oh... I'm...
Mrs Chua: Hey, Zhi Bin... I'm Mrs Chua from Mantissa...
Me: Oh...
Mrs Chua: I just want to ask you why you didn't come to Mantissa on Monday? Which is on 16th of August...
Me: Hmmm... I thought I will transfer to In-house Multimedia there to continue my study?
Mrs Chua: Erm... No... Because you still need to take Computer Class & English Intermediaries...
Me: Ohh... So I'm not going to study any design subjects yet?
Mrs Chua: Yes, but after this semester you will be transfer to In-house there to continue your graphic design coarse...
Me: Oh... Then nevermind lah... Cause I'm going to quit Mantissa & transfer to other colleges...
Mrs Chua: Oh... why? You'll be wasting your one whole semester at Mantissa...
Me: Oh well, It's okay... Cause I already made my decision after long consideration... So I'm going to quit anyway...
Mrs Chua: Oh... But this semester you can learn a lot if you come to Mantissa... Okay, let me tell you your classes in your graphic design coarse... Marketing, English Intermediaries, Computer class, 2D/3D design, colour study,etc......[ps: I can't rmb, It's too much...]
Me: Oh... Anyway, It's okay... Cause I already made my decision... So I will quit Mantissa lahh...
Mrs Chua: Erm.... okay... then let me ask you something... Is it you hear any bad rumors about Mantissa so you wanna quit?
Me: Err... no la... This is my personal decision... It's not related to anyone else...
Mrs Chua: Oh... Okay then let me do a survey... Are you not satisfy to Mantissa?
Me: Ermm... no la... I just feel like I wanna stop & rest for awhile... [actually YES]
Mrs Chua: Oh...Then is the lecturer not good or our...
Me: no no no... It's my own problem so not their fault...
Mrs Chua: Oh... It's okay to tell me if there are disatisfaction... Because I want to improve Mantissa...
Me: No no... really not their problem... It's really my own decision...
Mrs Chua: Oh... okay, then which college are you going to transfer to...?
Me: Erm... i haven't really decide about that yet... so mayb I'll rest for awhile then do some part-time first lahh...
Mrs Chua: Oh... then which college do you consider? In-house? The One Academy?
Me: Erm... Don't know yet lahh... Haven't choose...
Mrs Chua: Oh... anyway, I still want you to reconsider to continue another semester in Mantissa then continue on at In-house...
Me: Errm... I don't think so la... anyway thanks for calling...
Mrs Chua: Okay, thank you...
Me: Bye~
Mrs Chua: [no more voice]

Haha... that's it...
So finally I did it!!!
I'd quit Mantissa!!!!!!
XDDDD


END~


~LZB~

僕はできるか？

僕はできるか？
Am I able to do it?
我办得到吗？

我想了一段时间，
一直在想，
到底自己这样做对吗？

我真的能够办得到吗？
我就快要发疯了。
我自己都不知道是压力还是什么……

我其实有其他的选择，
但是，但是我还是做了……
虽然不知道对不对……
也不知道自己到底有没有能力做下去……
但是我已经开始了。

既然开始了，
就应该继续走下去。

办得到或办不到，
我也是要走下去。

所以，不管怎么样……
我都要走下去。


完


~LZB~

为什么？

现在的我真的没心情。
写 Blog 就是唯一能让我发泄的地方。
一切都不是我的错。
我一直在责怪着自己。
我很想找个人来出一出气。
但是我会忍……
我不会随便乱骂人。

一直都认为可能都是自己做错这种事才会发生。
但是，其实我并没有做错。
一切都是借口！！
原来这个世界是那么的现实。
我真的没想到是这样的……

被别人背叛的感受……
我终于知道了。

说得好象所有的事情都是我的错。
就连我自己也认为是我自己的错。
但是，
事实就是我做的错根本不算什么……

人生就是如此吗？？
活着就是要这样吗？？

傻傻的我，
被骗了那么久。

为什么？？
为什么不告诉我事实？？
为什么现在才能够让我知道？？
为什么不要永远隐瞒着我？？
为什么？？
到底为什么？？

爱一个人。恨一个人。
不同的地方只有一个字。
但是，当那个字改变后，
所有事情都会变。


完


~LZB~

15-08-2010... Few days had past since the last time I updated my blog...

Since I am always the organizer...
It makes my quite busy on these few days...
Everything started to plan on last Monday[09-08-2010]
but that time i haven't starting to get busy yet...
The actual date that I am busy is:
11th of August 2010 until 14th of August 2010...
which is Wednesday till Saturday...

On 11th of August 2010...
Which is Wednesday...
I starting to get busy...
Because,12th of August 2010 & 13th of August 2010...
these 2 days outings I have to plan everything in one day...
12th of August is my Kawanz's birthday...
Chin Sing's Birthday...
Then 13th of August...
We plan to go Chanwon's house then give her a big surprise...
At night...
XDD
After that,
On 14th of August 2010...
There's a event at IMU [International Medical University]
IMU Campus Bukit Jalil...
Just opposite of Sri Petaling LRT station...
The event is GAMP [Games Anime Manga Party]...
IMU is the place where my brother is studying last time...
He had already graduated for a few years...

So I shall start with my blog for the past few days...

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>>12-08-2010<<
Chin Sing's Birthday~
We went to Midvalley...
Then buy a birthday cake for him...
We celebrate everything at Kimgary @ Midvalley...
9ppl altogether celebrate with Chin Sing...
3 were from Purplecane Tea Restaurant staff...
Which is, Liping, Khai Swen & Huiyee...
then 6 were from SMKTD...
Which is, Chek Ping, Kuek, Yishing, Weng Soon, Mr Liang...
& ME!! XDD So the plan goes well...
BUT !!!
It was sooo funny that the birthday cake doesn't have candles...
L O L !!!
that person forgot to gave us the candles...
And we also forget to ask for the candles...
That's why...
HAHAHAHAH!!!!

XDD The Birthday boy!! Chin Sing ~~Mr Liang~
Khai Swen~
Liping & Huiyee~
Donno where is Chin Sing looking that time...
Yishing, Me, Chek Ping & Kuek...
Donno why Kuek so nervous... LOLX!!
Birthday Boy sedang dirogol~!!! LOLX!!WS wasn't in any pictures because he is late...
LOLX!!

So after everything is finish at Kimgary...
Some went back to work...
Some go back home...
Only Chin Sing, Chek Ping & Me...
Went for a movie...
We watch 戀愛通告...
A very funny Movie...
L O L X !!!
Just like a 童话故事...
XDD
After movie...
take bus back home...
I didn't went back home tat day~
I overnight at Chin Sing's house...
with my laptop...
Since his house don't have Wi-Fi...
So I can't online...
So,
We were watching drama using my laptop...
I downloaded the drama...
"Next Station, happiness"
“下一站，幸福”
At midnight...
until 4am something...
then only we sleep...
XDDD

This is the END of the day~

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>>13-08-2010<<
Surprise YUMCHA~

Since I overnight at Chin Sing's house...

So,
I have nothing to do the whole day until night...
L O L !!!
We wake up on 7am something...
then get back to bed...
On 9.45am,
we were awake again...
LOLX!!!
this time we never get back to sleep jor...
XDDD

Chin Sing got class on 12noon...
so I went to Midvalley after Chin Sing went to his college...
A L O N E !!!
B O R I N G !!!
NVM...
So, after I reach midvalley...
I walk around...
carrying my laptop...
SIENZ!!!
About 1pm something,
Since I hadn't eat anything since morning...

I decided to eat something...
So I went to Mcdonald,
EAT!!!
Then take out my laptop...
Online~~
^.^
Online until donno what time...
Then I found out there's some event at convention centre...
then after I packed up...
I went to 3rd floor of Midvalley...
Centre court...
The convention centre...
The event is about fashion...
I walked inside...
Then I found out everything inside is for Ladies...
=_=|||
Ladies fashion...
So,
I walked out after 5mins walking around the event...
B O R I N G A G A I N !!
After that,
I donno I walk for how long around midvalley...
What I know is,
I am BORED!!!
carrying my laptop...
walking around midvalley...
alone...
SIENZZ!!!
after that...
I went to purplecane to find Chin Sing...
Since he was working that day...
but...
they say tat he is working at 5pm...
so I waited...
until 5pm...
He haven't come...
OK... nvm...
I go find Weng Soon...
since 5pm is his rest time...
LOL...
So I teman WS for his break time at makan place...
Then I went back to purplecane to find Chin Sing...
He haven't come...
=_=|||
LATE!!!
He reach purplecane about 6pm...
OMG!!!
nvm...
He told me the reason...
LOLX!!!
not going to write here...
HAHAHAHA!!!

So I watch the last episode of,
"Next Station, Happiness"
“下一站，幸福”
At Purplecane Tea Restaurant,
VIP seats for 10ppl++
but I sit there alone...
LOLX!!

Until 7pm something...
I finish the last episode...
then I call MOK...
He ask me to go find him at Old Klang road...
So I packed up,
then headed to the bus stop at Midvalley...
I waited awhile at Old Klang road...
Then He came...
So The Plan for that night Began~!!!

All of us stay at TD first...
Then We went to fetch ppl 1 by 1...
then all of us gather at Sri Petaling LRT...
& Here we go!!!
To Chanwon's house~
LOLX!!!
@ Seri Kembangan...
So...
We all went there...
3 cars altogether...
6 boys & 6 girls...
I am not going to tell everyone who's going but there's no picture...
Because he don't want others to know that he went...
hmm... nvm...

So 3 cars...
Finding the place for so long...
& finally...
We FOUND the place!!!
OMG!!!
FINALLY~
XDD

So,
3 cars were parked...
then everyone get into her house...
LOL!!!
but she is not inside her house...
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
But her mom said that she is coming back soon...
So all of us waited at her house...
LOLX!!!
Finally!!! She is BACK!!!

She is stunned when she saw all of us...
XDD
So we went to somewhere nearby to have a meal or tea...

This is the Picture...
Girls: Pooi Khee, Zin Yi, Chanwon, Chia Chi, Xiao Jing & Lyvia ~
Boys: Mok, Kuek, Yishing & Me ~
This is the location...
It's located at Putra Walk...
After that...
we decide to went to the pool/snooker....
We went somewhere near Chanwon house to find...
But...
We decided not to play at last...
It was a good thing though...
Because the smell of the cigarettes is so damn freaking heavy!!!
So,
We went back home...
1 by 1...
Firstly send Chanwon back...
Then, I was the second one...
since my house is the nearest to her house...
LOLX
It was already 12am something when I reached home...
then I on my laptop...
then upload the pictures at Facebook...
LOLX~
then at 3am something,
I sleep...

So,
This is the End of the day~

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>>14-08-2010<<
GAMP

Saturday, Saturday~
wake up in the morning...
about 8am...
then breakfast with family outside...
then come back...
play computer...
until 1.30pm something...
Then
I went to GAMP...
Games, Anime, Manga, Party !!
At IMU Campus Bukit Jalil...


I reached there about 3pm...
then meet many new friends there~
All were Wee Cheng's friends...
She is one of the cosplayer...
LOL...
She keep on calling me to become a cosplayer...
LOL...

Hmm...
Many cosplayer is there...
but I didn't take a lot of pictures that day...
Not in the mood...
donno why...
LOLX...

mostly the pictures that I taken is Wee Cheng & her friends~
Hahaha...
Hmm...
After the whole event...
About 7pm,
All of us, the group,
went to mamak nearby to eat & drink...
After chit-chating awhile at mamak...
All of us went back home..
One of Wee Cheng's friend fetch me to Old Klang Road,
then I take bus back home...
So unlucky that day...
coz when he was going to drop me off,
the Bus that I am taking just past!!!
In front of my eyes!!!
NVM... wait!!!
about 9pm something I entered the NEXT bus...
Then 10.15pm I reached home safely as usual~
HAHAHA~~
Then, Online...
accept friend request...
LOLX...
upload pictures...
play until 3am something...
SLEEP!!!

That's the End...

*******************************************************************

Busy for 3 days continuously...
Now... BORED again....
Nvm...
this is LIFE...

END~


刹那・F・セイエイ
~LZB~

Bored...

Going to be bored again...
my next driving lesson is not on 11th August 2010,
It had been changed to 19th August 2010...
& it will be continuous...
Means 20th August 2010 will have another driving lesson...
After that, if I am okay with it,
then I will be ready to take the test... :D

but still need to wait for 2 weeks after the first test...
then only the real test...

it was just so bored...
yesterday didn't go out for the whole day...
today also the same...
staying at my house the whole day...
BORED!!!

Why I still don't have a license & a car?!?

END~


刹那・F・セイエイ
~LZB~

It's was just so stupid...

Yesterday [08-08-2010],
I organize a outings with Kawanz...
Coz there was PC fair at KLCC...
So we went to KLCC...

So the plan was,
First I go Taman Desa,
Meet Yi Shing & Mok around 12.30pm,
Then PMC will bring his car then fetch us,
after that fetch Yoke Shan at Cheras,
Then went PC Fair together...
After that, maybe yum cha...
Then, go back home...javascript:void(0)
Tats was the plan...

But,
the plan didn't work out properly...

So...
this is what happen yesterday,
12.30pm I reach Taman Desa,
meet YS & Mok,
After PMC came at about 1pm something,
Then,
We went Cheras to fetch Yoke Shan,
Okay, still no problem...
Then we go KLCC...
So at first it was no problem

but, after that...
when we reach KLCC,
TRAFFIC JAM...
So we decided to continue...
since we were already arrive...
then very very slowly...
trying to get into the car park...
but, the guard blocked the road...
means...
the car park entrance were blocked...
So everyone have to make a "U" turn...
Then turn to another car park...
At that moment...
We were all "emo"
coz we've been waiting for years for that moment to enter the car park...
but, they blocked it...
So, since the traffic was tooo seriously jam...
We decided to chg place....
So, We chat inside the car to plan which place to go next...
hmm...
At last, There were decision...
So all of us went sunway pyramid...
from KLCC...
so far...
but still we reach there...
After that,
we walk around sunway pyramid awhile...
then find a place to eat...
decision was also made after long time consideration...
SO we went to Pasta Zanmai...
Expensive... but nvm...
Eat & drink...
For me & YS only...
I ordered a curry chicken rice & a hazelnut coffee...
YS ordered a tomatoes sauce no omu rice & latte coffee...
Mok & PMC drink coke...=.=|||
Yoke Shan didn't order...
So she just sit there with us & chat...
Hmmm....
then... Kuek came..
He take years to find out where is Pasta Zanmai...
But nvm,
He reached at last...
then he ordered a apple juice... then tat's all...
So we eat...
then chat...
after that..............
go back...=.=|||
OMG!!!
Stupid Outings!!!!

But at last we still manage to watch a movie...
But only 4 guys...
which is Me, YS, MOK & Kuek...
Yoke Shan was sicked...
So PMC fetch her back...
Then we went to SPARKS at Desa Petaling to watch movie...
MBO cinema... LOLX!!!
this is the first time i went there to watch movie...
We watched "The Last Airbender"
It was a nice movie...
Okay...
So... after that...
We went TD again...
to eat...
at sri neelas...
coz YS say want to watch football...
So... we went there...
I ordered a roti telur only...
but Kuek ordered a nasi goreng pataya then belanja me!!
hahaha...XD
coz the nasi goreng pataya was spicy n he can't eat it...
So... PMC joined us back tat time...
eat & drink again...
Then Kuek fetch me back to IOI Mall bus stop,
then I go back home by bus lo~

When I reached home,
It's already 11pm++
So bath then play computer...
until 4am++ then sleep... haha...

PS:
[I felt so sorry for inviting yoke shan to attend but she didn't really do anything, and she was sicked that moment... she should've stay at home... Sorry...]


END~


刹那・F・セイエイ
~LZB~

Fun!!!

Yesterday [ 06-07-2010 ],
I woke up at 7am something,
but actually I slept at 4am something...
I din't even put alarm or watever...
& no one sms me or call me...
I just wake up myself automatically...
donno why...]

hmm...
nvm...

Yesterday, I walk out my house at about 1pm++
then take bus to KL sentral, then LRT to KLCC...
with 3 person, Sai Kit, Kenry & Boon Aun...
they help me to buy the tickets for LRT since they arrived first...
3 of them waited for me after buying the LRT tickets...
then they have their lunch over there while waiting for me...
I felt sooo sorry for them la...
since they waited for me for so long at KL central...

I was bored when I am heading KL central inside the bus...
And I also met a person that I never met before...
Wat so special about this person??
He is wearing exactly the SAME clothes as mine...
He is also wearing a jeans!!
The difference is just the shoe & the face!!
He is an Indian if I am not mistaken...
He entered the same bus...
He din't notice me...
maybe becoz I was sitting very very back of the bus...
so we just continue the bus ride until OUG,
he dropped off...
he still din't see me...
noob~!!
Hahahahaha!!!
so that's all about tat noob...
Hahahahahahaha!!!XD

So I reach KL Central about 2.15pm...
becoz traffic were so jam due to the weather...
It's raining on tat moment...!!
so all 4 of us then go into the LRT station there...
then towards KLCC...
when we reach KLCC...
It was so funny...
As we were getting ourselves out of the LRT when the LRT stop at KLCC,
Sai Kit almost cant get out of the LRT...
He need to say thx Kenry,
for putting his hand "in danger" when the door is closing
becoz of that, the door reopen...
so Sai Kit manage to get out of the LRT...!!!
HAHAHA!!!XD
if not, Sai Kit may have to go to the next station then come back...
XD!!!

Okay, after we arrive there,
we walk towards the PC fair,
where we also donno where is it...
I sms my another friend that is working at Purplecane be4,
which is chin yee... then call her...
then she come find me...
Tat time I was standing in front of G2000 KLCC...
LOLX!!!
So she came,
with her sister & 1 of her college friend...
After that, 3 of my original gang walk away jo...
Then I change my gang,
Means:
I follow 3 girls around the PC Fair...
Hmmm....
So we walk around the Fair...
Hall 1 - 5,
so tired...
went A&W and hav our meal....
It was so damn funny right here...
coz the cashier is absolutely, 100% counts wrongly...
nevermind, since the price is lower than normal price,
We don't care so much...
Saving Money is IMPORTANT!!!
lolx!!!XD!!!

after that,
her friend went back jo...
So only me, her and her sis staying at A&W until 5.45pm...
then leave...

then when we reach LRT station,
OMG!! The queue !!!! OMG!!!!!!
So damn LONG!!!
haiz...
nvm la... what to do??
can't change the fact that most ppl is going back home at tat moment...
So after we bought the tickets, went toilet awhile...
It's already 6.15pm...
Then I dropped off at KL central,
She & her sister dropped off at Taman Jaya...
[If I remembered it correctly]

then i wait for bus then go to Taman Desa to YUM CHA!!!
And I meet someone IN THE BUS!!!
another girl...
I know her when I'm working at Purplecane Tea Restaurant, too...
But she is not working at Purplecane...
She is working at Sushi Zen...
Just in front of Purplecane la...
LOL!!!XD

Well, she said that, that's the first time she take a bus...
LOLx!!! compare to me...
OMG!!! big difference...
She is going to Midvalley,
so she dropped off first...
& She also told me that she also just came back from KLCC..
LOL!!!!

Okay...
then I reach Taman Desa,
I go find my Kawanz,
firstly, I go find Yishing,
then dinner together...
btw, tat time is already almost 8pm...
We eat at Fat rock restaurant at TD...
after eating then we chat abit since others were not ready yet...
Xiao Jing come find us... then continue chat a bit..
so after they gaodim...
PMC come fetch everyone then lets go! HAI LAM KOPITIAM...
YUM CHA!!
after that!!!
DOTA at Alibaba!!! woo!!!
yeah!!!
WS join us tat time... he just off only...
so dint join us yum cha... lolx!
so DOTA!
so funny match!!
anyway, nice match!! haha...XD
then after tat...
go back home lo... PMC fetch Mok back...
WS say he is hungry...
so another round at CNC... lolx!!
YS follow us...
so 3 ppl... haha...XD
until about 3am+++
then i went WS house overnight...
We chat in the room until 4.48pm according to my time in my hp...
then sleep... 7.46am awake!!! actually its already too late...
LOLx...!!! XD!!!
coz originally, 7.30am WS have to reach Restaurant U like it...
coz there's a meeting in the morning for him...
hahaha!!!
so he is late... wat to do??
then i went to TD park...
walk around, then go CNC for breakfast...
then wait for bus, then go midvalley...
walk around at midvalley until around 12noon...
then wait for bus, then go back home... sienz!!!
1pm++ reach...
then play computer until now...
havent rest yet.. OMG!!!
but I m soo... hmm... donno how to write...
just can't sleep la...
wat to do??
nvm!!

anyways, tats the END!!!

刹那・Ｆ・セイ エイ
~LZB~

我的 Guitar~

最近都很得空，也很闷……
所以就一直在学弹Guitar……
弹到左手的手指有点痛……
动了就停，休息一下……
然后舒服了就继续……
哈哈……

一直在学一首很难弹的歌……
[对我来说啦]
可能对其他会弹Guitar的人来说，
只是很简单罢了。
但是对我而言，
真的很难。
因为我很还很差……=(

这首歌其实有点旧了……
但是我觉得很好听所以就很想学会弹这首歌……
哈哈！！

但是我已经学了一个星期了，
才会 Intro 和 verse 1 罢了。=(
[ 其实一天才练习大概30分钟，因为弹一下子瘦就会痛了 ]
T.T
Acoustic Guitar 就是比较容易痛……
如果我用Classic 弹这首歌的 Tabs 就好咯……

但是其实这首歌的 Guitar Chords 很简单。
短短几个小时就学会了……

但是我要学的不只是 Chords 啊！！！
我也想学 Tabs 啊！！！
OMG！！！手真的很痛啊！！
超难的……唉…………

没办法咯，
只好慢慢来咯……
终有一天会学会的！！！
不是吗？？
哈哈！！XD

还有啊，
这首歌的意识也很好，
所以才那么喜欢它！！
是一首伤心的歌来的……

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歌名：「粉雪（こなゆき）」
Romaji: [ Konayuki ]
歌手：「レミオロメン」
Romaji: [ Remioremen ]

歌词（日本語）：

粉雪舞う季節はいつもすれ違い
人ごみに紛れても同じ空見てるのに
風に吹かれて似たように凍えるのに

僕は君のすべてなど知ってはいないだろう
それでも一億人から君を見つけたよ
根拠はないけど本気で思ってるんだ

些細な言い合いもなくて同じ時間を生きてなどいけない
素直になれないなら喜びも悲しみも空しいだけ

粉雪ねえ心まで白く染められたなら
二人の孤独を沸け会うことができたの会　

僕は君の心に耳を押し当てて
その声のする方へすっと深くまで
降りてゆきたいそこでもう一度会おう

分かり合いたいなんて
上辺を撫でていた（なでていた）のは僕のほう
君の悴んだ（かじかんだ）
手も握り閉めることだけで繋がってたのに

粉雪ねえ永遠を前にあまりに脆く
ざらつくアスファルトの上染みになってゆくよ

粉雪ねえ時に頼りなく心は揺れる
それでも僕は君のこと守り続けたい

粉雪ねえ心まで白く染められたなら
二人の孤独を包んで空に返すから


( Romaji ):

Konayuki mau kisetsu wa itsumo sure chigai
Hitogomi ni magirete mo onaji sora miteru no ni
Kaze ni fukarete nita you ni kogoeru no ni

Boku wa kimi no subete nado shitte wa inai darou
Soredemo ichi oku nin kara kimi wo mitsuketa yo
Konkyo wa naikedo honki de omotterunda

Sasaina ii aimo nakute Onaji jikan wo ikite nado ike nai
Sunao ni nare nai nara Yorokobi mo kanashimi mo munashii dake

Konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
Futari no kodoku wo wake au koto ga dekita no kai

Boku wa kimi no kokoro ni mimi wo oshi atete
Sono koe no suru hou he sutto fukaku made
Orite yukitai soko de mou ichi do aou

Wakari aitai nante Uwabe
wo nadete itano wa boku no hou
Kimi no kajikanda te mo nigiri
shimeru Koto dakede tsunagatteta no ni

Konayuki nee eien wo mae ni amari ni moroku
Zara tsuku ASUFARUTO no ue shimi ni natte yuku yo

Konayuki nee toki ni tayori naku kokoro wa yureru
Soredemo boku wa kimi no koto mamori tsuduketai

Konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
Futari no kodoku wo tsutsunde sora ni kaesu kara


（英文翻译）：

The season of dancing,
powdered snow always passes us by
even lost in the crowd,
we're gazing at the same sky
the blowing wind chills us in a similar way

I probably don't know everything about you
yet, out of a hundred million people I found you
and though there is no basis,
I seriously feel this
without quarreling over trivial things
we can't be together

If we're unable to be honest with each other,
happiness and sadness are worthless
if the powdered snow has dyed our hearts white
could we have shared our loneliness?

with my ear pressed up close to your heart
I want to descend quietly into the depths
where its voice leads me
let's meet there once again

I had wanted us to understand each other
but it was I who had just brushed the surface
even though,
just tightly grasping your hand numb with cold

we were connected
before eternity,
the powdered snow is too fragile(falling down)
it stains the surface of the coarse asphalt
powdered snow, you know,
sometimes I'm unreliable and my heart quivers
nevertheless,

I want to continue to protect you
if the powdered snow has dyed our hearts white
our loneliness will be engulfed
and be returned to the sky


完


刹那・Ｆ・セイ エイ
~LZB~

First Time Driving Experience~ [Manual]

Today morning,
Is my first driving lesson after I got my L license...
My L license were created on 12th of July 2010...
so according to Malaysia Rules,
I can take the test after 12th of August 2010 ...^^
so it's just after these 7 days, which is also a week from now,
I will be allowed to take the driving test...^.^

but my first driving lesson is today,
AND it's already 5th of August 2010 today!!!
so...
It will be impossible for me to take the driving test so soon...
T.T...

Nevermind!!!
since even I have a P license,
I wouldn't be able to drive so soon,
just because there's no car for me to use!!!
T.T...

there's 2 cars in my family,
1 is for my mom,
the other 1 is the 1 that my brother is driving now...
He is a pharmacies...
working in a hospital at Pekan, Pahang...
about 2 years edi...
But he is driving Perodua KANCIL !!!
I just hope that he can buy a car for himself,
then let me use the Kancil...
But, I donno when will it be... >.<
Anyway,
It is quite successful on my today driving lessons...
This is the first time I drive a manual car...
PS: [I drive a auto car be4, twice!!XD]
Also a Perodua Kancil... lol...
at HQ of the driving academy...
there's large field for learner...

Starting of the lesson,
the instructor keep on talking to me,
telling me this & that,
Telling me :
"What I should do, what I shouldn't do..."
"The 3 steps, control of the accelerator, brake & clutch..."
"The control of the steering wheels..."
"Control of Gear 1 & Gear 2... [ONLY]"
After that,
he showed me what I should do, then...
IT'S MY TURN!!! Okay, Let's go!!!

Firstly, both of us exchange seats [of coz],
Then I, check the wiper & the left/right signer light...
check the gear whether it is at free gear,
check the side mirrors & the mirror in the centre,
adjust the seat to a comfortable possitions,
put on the seat belt... Let's go, baby!!

Starting, I am not steady...
suddenly fast, then suddenly brake...
LOLX!!! XD coz it's the first time I drive a manual...
but it was just within 2/3 minutes...
then steady!!! Speed!!! Accelerate!!!
then the instructor tell me to drive slower...
=(...
he tell me to drive at 15 km/hr...
OMG!!!
It's Freaking SLOW!!!
Even slower than I ride my BIKE!!!
Okay, nvm... slow & steady...
continue on & continue on...
Then I feel bored...
Coz just turning around the field,
& passing a T junction & a small roundabouts..
sienz...
So... I decided to try to make the engine "sei fo"
Hahaha...XD
So, I try releasing my clutch faster when I am in gear 1...
then It WORKS!!! XD "sei fo" jor!!!
LOLX!!!!
then the instructor told me not to release it too fast...
LOL!!!!
but after that I also "sei fo" another 2 times...
these 2 time is not on purpose... XD
so he tought me what to do...
then... continue on few rounds...
then suddenly the instructor tell me to stop...
Then he tell me to becareful & not to drive too fast,
then he LEAVE!!! LOLX!!!
HE LET ME DRIVE BY MYSELF!!!
HAHAHA!!! XD
So I drive...
It was a lot faster without him beside me!!
XD I also on the radio...
LOL!!!!
hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!
then i drive at 20-30 km/hr...
then reach 40 km/hr...XD!!!
I continue on to the 3rd gear...
HAHAHAHA!!!
after few rounds of that place,
I saw him looking at me from outside...
So... I drive slower...
then it went back to 15-20km/hr...
LOLX!!! After that, he fetch me home...
then wait for my next lessons...
which is 11th of August 2010!!!!
6 days to go!!!
He say next lessons I'm going to drive outside...
which is the big road & the highways!!!
AWESOME!!!
FANTASTIC!!!
Hahaha!!!

Anyway,
that's the END of it....C=


刹那・Ｆ・セイ エイ
~LZB~

僕はできる！！！

我发现到，
原来要把一个人完完全全放下是很难的一件事。

尤其是当我的空没事做时，
我就会想到‘她’……

虽然我……
已经把有关‘她’的东西删除了……
但是有些东西，
还是忘不了的……

‘她’的电话号码我已经删除了。
但是我还是能记得一清二楚……
‘她’的生日日期……
‘她’最喜欢的颜色……
‘她’最喜欢的玩偶……
‘她’最喜欢的偶像……
‘她’最喜欢做的动作……
‘她’最喜欢的宠物……
‘她’最喜欢喝的饮料……
‘她’喜欢和不喜欢吃的东西……
‘她’喝了就会不舒服的饮料……
‘她’的一切，我都能背出来。

我到底怎么了？
说过要放下。
也放下了
但是为什么就是忘不了？
有时候还梦见她……
都已经分手两个月多了……
据我所知，她也有了男朋友……
但是为什么我还是那个样？

我知道我只是个没有用的人……
可能这辈子都找不到属于我的‘四叶草’

有时候，我正在想，
可能我应该要感谢‘她’，
感谢‘她’的绝情……
让我学习了很多东西……
虽然‘她’让我很难再相信爱情……
但是我知道这个世界上还是有真爱的……

也许这一切都是天注定的……
虽然我一向来都不相信神的存在……
我一直都不相信任何的注定的命运……
一直都只相信所有的事情都要靠自己努力才能得到……
我知道这个世界是没有白吃的午餐。

所有的东西都要靠自己努力得到。
虽然有些人比较好命。
出身于比较好的家庭。
但是没有人是可以活在没有烦恼的状态的……
只是烦恼多和少……

我告诉自己：
“放下吧，放下不属于自己的幸福，
开始寻找真正属于我的‘四叶草’吧……
一切就把它变成回忆吧……
就向之前说过的，
也许……
放下就是得到，失去就是拥有，
对的人，会在我决定改变的时候才到来。
加油吧！！
頑張って！！
僕はできる！！”


完


刹那・Ｆ・セイ エイ
~LZB~