Clocks never stops, our lifespan is decreasing every seconds.

Sadly, I guess this is really what I'm capable.
Yeah, I know no one including her likes this kind of me.
Maybe, It isn't just dislike, it is hatred.
Maybe, I shouldn't continue on since the beginning of everything...
Maybe, I shouldn't let anyone know about how I felt about anything...
Maybe, I should have just hide deep in my hearts.
Maybe, am I regretted after what I did? No.
Since this might be destined to happen this way all the time...

I do, does and did.
I make mistake, tell lies, smile even it wasn't what I want to do.
Well, who cares anyway?

Life's just complicated sometimes.
There are "Passers-by". Lots of them.

Today is 10th July,
I was told by myself to rmb today since 28days ago.
Infatuation or love?
Well, I am always a fool.
And I don't care a damn thing about how whom are.
What actually lies deep inside me?
Why rejecting those that likes?
Why suffered to try to get attention from whom?
I seriously doesn't get it...

The average human's life expectancy in Malaysia is 74.04.
Male 71.28, Female 76.99
So if I live like normal person, I might be dead after 50years+.
Until today, I've roughly already went through about 28% of my life.
so what about my other 72%?
maybe illness, my way of living, my food intake, might causes it to decrease.
Life isn't indefinite period of time.

Maybe I should stop writing all these foolish words that never meets an end to it...
But I can't find a place to store safely.
My mind isn't infinite memory.
My mind can't keep too much viruses.
Antivirus? there's only one's has it.
Antidote? No, I need none of it.
I'm not the likes of he and he and he and he.
What's the difference? :)

Things about others I will always straight forward,
Things about myself, I would want only peoples that really care capable to understand.
notice the 's'?
我真的很爱你。但是你呢？一点都不喜欢吗？
Please tell me what you really thinks about me...
I really wanna know it even though it might hurt...

RyoichiZB