Life is getting Tougher

It's already September 2015,

It's already more than a year since the last post...

Many things happen, Many things...

Let's get things summarize up....

April 2014

Had an accident that changed my entire life...

It was on 28th April 2014, approximately 10.30pm

 Yes, It might look serious (IT IS SERIOUS)

But luckily there is only minor injuries.

 Doctor gave me 1 week MC,

eventually I use 2 days to settle things that need to settle,

and yeah, I'm back to work.

Million of Thanks to Fion,

She borrowed her Pink Myvi for me to drive for around 3 months +++...

until I get my car back...

I really appreciate that...

On August 2014,

I finally get my hand on my first car that bought by myself...

Thanks to Mr Henry Ho (Shermyn's Father),

that help me in getting this car,

Thanks...

May 2014

Almost gonna use my savings to this for 'her'...

Well, I didn't.

I guess I made a correct choice...

June 2014

Something happen between 2 of us...

She thinks I'm not available for her as she wants more time to be with her...

I'm unable to do so as I'm working in Retail line,

Can't really have too much time...

It might sounds like excuses...

Yeah, It is, Maybe...

Conclusion,

I'm not the right one for her and she is not the one for me...

And yeah, I'm officially back to single...

July 2014

I think most of my friends knows,

I'm totally addicted to this game,

and yeah, I get my hands on the 1st edition Chain Chronicle Artbook.

Get a limited edition card !

Ya, It's kinda useless card. Lol...

2nd Photoshoot for FF Type-0, Jack

Special Thanks to Photographer Michael Ooi for below photo + editing

August 2014

Bought my favourite character for all times.

Squall Leonhart

Haven't cosplay as him yet, till now...

(Backlog)

September 2014

YOLO Penang trip ~

Esprit Annual Dinner~

And 30th September 2014, Last day at Esprit Parkson One Utama...

October 2014

1st October 2014,

Permanently transfer to Esprit Pavilion

Greater Challenge, Greater Experience...

Sales Supervisor In Training.

Great Experienced and had plenty of fun that time. 

My 22nd Birthday

Even though it is 2 days later than the actual,

Still, Thanks and I really do appreciate.

30th October 2014
Challenge and Fail.

Times Up~ Left this much...

It took me 12mins+ to finish...

November 2014

Nothing much happens... guess I'm busy that time...

December 2014

CF 2014

Cosplay as Favourite Character from my favourite game Chain Chronicle...

Yup a bit fail, due to last min...

2014.

It wasn't a good year for me...

Lost phone earlier of the year,

Lost car in the middle of the year,

Lost someone special...

And there comes 2015,

January 2015

Went to Malacca for retreat with colleague

February 2015

11th February 2015,

Went to Broga Hill for the 3rd time with Secondary Friends.

On the same day after back from Broga...

Some random motorcyclist hit my side mirror and ran off...

14th February 2015

Valentine's Day.

Maggie at home... lol...

Btw, I never actually celebrate this day before in my entire life...

:/

17th February 2015

Setting up for Genting Warehouse Sales...

March 2015

1st March 2015

Lou Sang with Ex Colleague at Purplecane Tea Restaurant.

4th March 2015

Solo Coffee-hop for the first time at Coffeegrapher

This was my off day and also the last day I worked at Pavilion

5th March 2015

Transfer to Esprit Sunway Pyramid...

April 2015

22nd April 2015

Went to Sungei Lembing at Pahang.

Nice place to relax.

Will definitely go there again with someone that have same interest...

(Hope that I can find one that has)

Lost Samsung Galaxy S4 during Jungle Trekking at Waterfall at Sungei Lembing...

6th February 2015

Got myself Mi4,

First Selfie taken...

11th April 2015

Fion Alma Woo Huey Shuen B'day~

May 2015

16th May 2015

Yolo Tea at SS2 Wong Kok Char Chan Teng

After Wong Kok,

Went to BK3 Mamak for the continue tea...

I would never forget this day...

Because this is the starting of the day that I will need to start to bare real commitment...

23rd May 2015

Dinner and Tea after work~

24th May 2015

First Time went to After Black~

On the same day at night

25th May 2015

2nd time After Black

June 2015

5th June 2015

Tea with Friends at Doors Cafe.

21st June 2015

Karaoke with Colleague~

July 2015

7th July 2015

Steamboat Farewell for Mandy

20th July 2015

Open House at Watie House.

23rd July 2015

First time flight.

To Bangkok for vacation

At Bangkok,

It was a very fun trip to Bangkok,

Really relax well there...

Hope have another chance going there again...

August 2015

1st August 2015,

YOLO to Sepang Gold Coast and Mitsui Outlet Park

8th August 2015,

Sam and Cathrys Birthday Party,

Thanks for inviting~

10th August 2015

Super LOLOL playing the spin chair at One Utama Shopping Centre...

11th August 2015

Celebrating Watie's Birthday at Loudspeaker Setia Walk.

22nd August 2015,

Took a photo with Aimee at VAX~~~

30th August 2015

Super YOLO last min plan with Zerrick

Prison School

On the same day at night,

Movida~ with Zerrick, Derrick and Gary...

Gary has already fallen asleep this moment... lol

September 2015

5th September 2015

Derrick Graduation Convo~

Working that day but it's my breaktime.

6th September 2015

Rekindle with Zerrick~

11th September 2015,

The Beer Factory with the gangs~

Still remember that we actually drink until 5am....

at mamak after TBF...

13th September 2015,

Photoshooting at Cup Cat Studio~

Thanks to everyone~

Really had lots of fun during the photoshooting session....

And some really awkward moments.... > ///// <

Sorry.................................

Really Hope that there's 2nd round...

:)

16th September 2015

My official last day working at Sunway Pyramid

Had a great time working with them,

Hopefully my future team is a good one too...

Conclusions.

My life are just getting harder and harder...

Salary increase but commitment too...

Sometimes I really would like to find someone to talk about my feelings,

so that everything will not just keep by myself...

I just don't know...

I don't know who...

I don't know how...

Sometimes, I really need someone to talk to...

But who can I really rely on?

Speak out, speak out.....!

Maybe I just need a hug...

Am I Weak? Maybe...

And today 21st September 2015...

Looking back at what had happen so far.... 

Really do makes me happy...

for a moment...

But I'm not...

I tried my very best not to think about all the problems that facing right now.

But the only solutions is to stop being alone. 

Whenever I'm talking with someone else,

I will just somehow get rid of that stress feel for that moment.

And everything will just came back after I reach home alone...

Distraction.....distraction... I need that....

Really hope that my life will gets better...

Thanks for reading...

Endless Story...

Best Regards

Ryoichizb

Life is changing

It's April and it was long since the last time I posted anything here....

It had been a few busy months to rush for the peak season.

Retail job is much more different than any industries as our busy moments are others' free time.

January 2014.

Working almost all the time.

CNY dinner at Seremban.

Day 1 & 2 at KL chilling.

3rd Back to work.

CNY Day 1 at Sunway with Friends~

Day 1 Night Tea~

February 2014.

7th, S3 went into service centre to fix the sim card reader.
8th, Bought a new Nokia Lumia 520 to take over my phone for 2 days.
9th, got back my S3
14th, Lost S3.
15th, Bought S4.

19th, Tea with friendss~

21st, went to Hatyai with colleagues.

 March 2014

 Went to JB to look for my friend and chill

Met someone special...

April 2014

Went Melaka to look for her

Back from Melaka and to sunway~

Attending bro convo~

Life has just started getting better...

was so bad before this...

Working hard and hoping to get a better day after this.

Life now.

Stressful.

Missing.

Incomplete.

I love you Peiyu.

Really hope that it will be a good ending for both of us...

Endless Story

Ryoichizb

New year New Life ?

New Year New life?

It's just another year.
Thought that my life will become better,
but this year is just damn full.
I need more time to relax.
I need more time to rest.I need more time to chill.I need more time...

Stress year stress days stress life...
It's just tiring to know that almost all the things have to do it myself...
family started to rely on me.
I'm force to stay stronger.

Sometimes I need a place to release stress...
Sometimes I don't know how to make all these into words...
Sometimes I think people around me doesn't think like what I do...

I'm not saying that I am much better than anyone...
I just felt that they will not be able to understand what I truly felt...

Maybe I really need someone to be able to listen to what I say...
Maybe I just too stupid and unable to figure these by myself...
It's all just came too fast...
I wanted to prove to everyone that I'm capable doing this and that...
But sometimes it's just too much...
Maybe I still need much time to figure out what I am really able to do...

It's just damn tiring...Please... let me rest...

Incomplete?

RyoichiZB

Ending of 2013

Looks like my blog is gonna rust very soon.

It has been so long since the last time I updated.

These few months were quite a busy month for me...

The time goes off damn fast...

I can't even remember what have I done for the past few months.

I was kinda push myself too much at work.

As I want to make the best out of it... and it seems like my body has been going through a tough time these months...

I have gone through so much in my life, and I met so many people this year...

Being sentimental sometimes but not showing like always.
Smiley face of mine had already covered my true feeling for such a long time.

I just realized that actually there are things that I can never forget...

even if I want to...

Sometimes I really need someone to talk to, to speak out, to say what I really felt...
But I was always acted so tough like there is nothing actually happen at all...

I hate that side of me... Why can't I just share it out?
Karaoke is always the best place for me to release stress...

As I only sing emotional songs, cause the lyrics somehow capable to relate to my life,

and after hearing it, I somehow felt calm.

Is there actually anyone that are able to listen to what I say?
I am the only one that know myself and also the only one that does not know myself...

Attitude...
For work, I have the most serious attitude... 

I am able to sacrifice my time and all others for it...

In friendship, I am the one that is most straight forward...

Without thinking so much, I will just say what I really think it should be...Sometimes it might hurt others in the mean time...

In love life, I keep on friend-zoning everyone...

Acting so cool like I does not need anyone...

I don't seem to understand why I keep on showing this kind of attitude to all the people...

Just so tired...

I really hope someone actually know my true self...

And it seems like today is the last day of 2013,

It's an ending and also an beginning of a new journey...

To be continue on 2014...

Ryoichizb

It's Wine Day

Today is wine day,
which is a day that for all couple to celebrate by enjoying a nice dinner at restaurant.

For me, totally a normal day,
and it was like so coincident that today is my off day.

Well, looking for something to do right now.
Must fully utilize all my time, not to waste any of it anywhere.

I like to have a FULL life, I don't like having boring life.
It just make me felt lifeless.

Stresses came everyday, whether we want it or not, whether we can cope with it or not...
Facing all stresses is a must, it's just depends on sooner or later.

It just weird that today I'm being sentimental, I can't understand why.
My birthday is coming soon. but I don't felt like it is.
21st Birthday, shouldn't it be celebrated with special things?
Well I don't know, and I think it will actually be the same...

Life...

To be continue

Ryoichizb

Cope with it... Deal with it...

It's already September... Soon to be another year passing...

Time goes very fast this year... and I felt stresses coming to me more and more...

Graduated? Yes, but sorry I'm not going after my dreams. Dream vs Realistic. Realistic wins.

Since last month, I've been promoted to a in-charge position and looking after 3 counters.

It's difficult to do things without help. Yeah I may have a 2nd with me, but he is not as good as I expected,
and there're too much things I've to do it myself. I've tried to make him better and let him know that what should he do. He rely too much and can't do it himself.

By just thinking of current problems that I'm facing, it's already making me a headache. Sometimes I really do not know how to reply to the situation when my superior against me. I've to handle EVERY single thing, even small cases. I can't even relax on my off day... It's just damn... damn...

Well, stresses will have all the time whenever or wherever we go. So I think I'll just have to live with it, deal with it. Settling it.

On 1st September, I met her... who's her? My ex. She just went pass me right before my eye when I'm working. I'm totally stunned. Was having lots of pressure that time with lots of task need to be settle and it's just somehow out of my mind temporarily. It just felt like so long ago... But why I can still remember?

Upon entering my car, I started the engine, and the music just play like it knows what I'm thinking. Damn.

Good Luck to me and Keep it up!
I've 2 years to prove what I am. :)

RyoichiZB

After that...

2 more days and it's July...

It has been a month since the last time I blog...
Was so busy before... and finally there's a small break...
And tomorrow is my graduation convocation...

and there it goes 3 years...

College life was a total mess...

hate most of it and like some part of it...

I'm still thinking whether to continue studies and get a degree or just start working...
It's like another 2years of mess?
I just hate my life right now...
there's lots of opportunity for me to turn another way towards a different path...

and sometimes I asked myself, what is the reason I study in the first place?

Somesay, "To ensure a brighter future"

Yeah, it is able to help prevent dying from hunger...
But it isn't gonna bring myself rich that way...

lonely?
Sometimes, yeah...
Sometimes, not really...
plenty of chances for myself to get rid of that status but I chosen to stay at it.

I'm so tired...
Maybe I'm just being lazy?

Hate my life right now...
I wanna make a change...
Am I able to do that?

Again, I'm beiing sentimental...even after a month...
I just need a long break... I think...?


RyoichiZB

Reminded Me about Past

It has been awhile since then...

Suddenly "she" came across my mind...

I thought that I've already forgotten her...

But suddenly seeing her friends posting something...

Reminded me...

Why am I here blogging right now?

I should be doing my last homework right now for my presentation tomorrow...

My mood suddenly go deep down to the bottom...

My heart suddenly feel so pain as I think about it...

Right now, I can't stop myself thinking about it...

Who is "she"?

She WAS the one that I thought I can't live without...

She WAS the one that I'm willing to give all I have...

She WAS the one that I thought I'm gonna marry in the future...

She WAS the one that I love the most...

She WAS the one I wanted to protect the most...

Yeah, She WAS...

3 years had passed since then...

You told me to wait for you...

and you told me to cool down for 1 month...

3 years ago, today is the day that u said after 1 month...

Just drank alicafe... wont be sleeping tonight

Sorry for being sentimental today...

RyoichiZB

【ღ White Day ღ】

Today is White Day,

Valentine's Day is the day where girls presenting chocolate gifts to boys as an expression of love...

Whereby White Day is the day where boys should return the favor by giving back gifts to those girls...

But it's a normal day for me since there was no chocolate for me last month... XD

My Final Assessment is on 7th of April...

It's like the ultimate deadline for everyone in my class...

Yeah, it should be fine for me, I guess...

Perhaps I should make it better than that...?

Homework deadlines was like flying nearer and nearer to me...

It makes everything stress...

I don't have the time to do so much?

Sometimes I think I do have it...

But it just felt like I'm not doing it...

I'm not sure what's the feeling of this...

It just making me stress...

Love...?
I don't think I should be thinking about this anymore...
Tears will somehow stop when time comes...

Life will somehow gets better when I work hard...

And tomorrow is her birthday... 

I wonder why I can still remember...
But I will just look like I don't anyhow right? : )

Nothing much, just chilling here after doing some part of homework.

RyoichiZB

【ღ A Day and Another Day ღ】

So what's happening?

1st Situation :

My Internal Final Assessment ended. Wow.
Nice. Finally done. But much more to go on since 11th March gonna have an exhibition at college.
and what's the result? I don't know. Many things need to be improve.

2nd Situation :

Packaging group work that I don't know anything about it. Wow.
I wonder why is it have to be group work?
It's much better to do it alone anyhow since group members are all dragging me down.
What more I can say? Doing things that never actually think what will it be after that.
No comment from me besides saying "well done".
So what actually happens?
Yeah, I m having final on the damn same date and it make me much more busier.
Well, I did everything I can to make the whole thing easier to be able to understand.
But wtf happen?
Path were all wrong direction.
I wonder they really do research or they were planning to left everything for me to do.
I did what I'm capable, trying my freaking best to explain while they said "Yeah, Understood."
But What came out?
Okay, so maybe I should say it's my fault that I din't do EVERYTHING for you all.
If you all expect so much.

3rd Situation :

Hanging out after everything at college settled.
Fetching everyone back after dinner and plan to have another round to celebrate friends' birthday after that but was a total fail. since it's just fucking damn stupid plan. no point to explain more about it.

Freaking bad mood, no where to release anger. Well, maybe here's the best place to release anyway.

RyoichiZB