Starting point?

It was just like, even we are together,
I can't give her any happiness in life...
Trying my very best to forget...
I know I'm just useless there...

Alcohol made me drunk,
it's the first time I drunk,
Thanks for inviting me for the heavy alcohol session,
I was able to forget every single hard moment of my life...
I had release all the stresses and pain...
even though it was seems like yesterday...
I like the way I felt that moment...

there's too much lies between...
Not that I don't trust,
It's like, the truth is there, and she still lies...
Okay, just once okay, twice okay... tenth okay... 20,21,22...
Okay, telling myself that there must be something else happen that's why she lies
Okay, there isn't... Alright.... fine...
It's like when there's something someone hate, there's many reason saying no.
And I was like giving all sorts of reasons telling myself that, those ARE real.
And after concluding, I was just fucking waste of my time... It's fine.... I'm totally fine :)

Too much things in mind made me unable to sleep well...
I would like someone to care about what I felt...
And I know no one cares...
Perhaps my mask was wearing too thigh...
unable to release any more.

I guess my life has just went to a end point and also another starting point.
I would like someone that can understand my feeling.
and I haven't find that someone yet..
But I have already changed to another level of myself,
thanks...
I wouldn't easily accept, but I won't reject as well...
Capable opening my door, my life's yours.

Dream continues,
Life continues...

RyoichiZB